1 serving of truth & apology?

 

After taking an unexpected break away from my new, refreshing and inspiring blog, that I just started this year, I’m returning to it.

I’m going to try and explain the reason why I separated from it. All I know is my mind went silent, after the rush of ideas, thoughts and feelings I was experiencing when I decided to start a blog, everything around me felt as though it stopped moving.  I couldn’t move.

Friendships changed, my marriage matured, I discovered my joy in audio-books, my lifestyle was going through transitions, but I didn’t know the reason behind it.  I felt like there were many paths ahead of me to choose from, but I couldn’t take that first step to choose which path I wanted to take.  Trust me, this is not a conversational piece you could have with anyone and expect them to have the understanding towards it, so as I usually do, I decided to “walk alone” through it, and see where it takes me.

Throughout this experience, I kept thinking about “Her Butler”.  Why did I start this blog and just drop it like that?  Why the name “Her Butler”?  What is wrong with me?

The truth, there is nothing “wrong” with me, but my blog and what I want “Her Butler” to represent wasn’t coming from the place I thought it was coming from initially.

woman iin white dress walking on beach

A little background history about myself.  I was baptized two years ago, and my journey through exploring my beliefs and the scriptures made me want share my world according to how the Scriptures stipulated the life of Jews and Israelites lived.  No, I’m not a Christian, but I do consider myself a Servant of the Messiah the Christians call Jesus Christ.   Anyway, since my “rebirth”, my understanding to how life was meant to be lived and how the people chose to live at that time, made me want to do right according to how The Father wants His people to live.  My content was inspired by Scripture, and I received a following from continuing to adapt and apply life in the bible to my own, and guess what?  It worked, until I went “overboard”.  I think that was the reason for my pause.  I believe, the Father, or God as most know him by, gave His people the Laws and Statutes to live by to protect and shield them from Sin.

Her Butler, is My walk with YAH in this life I have left to the best of my ability.  Like we do with our own Fathers who we come from, we seek guidance and aide in hard times, I seek Him throughout the Scriptures.  My content may not always be pleasing to some, or difficult to understand at times, and that’s ok.  Like the King of the 12 Tribes once said, his sheep will hear his voice, and being born in April, I consider myself one of those sheep and I stand behind Him.  Loud and Proud!

Pphheewww!!! I made it!  I think this is what I was meant to do from the beginning.  I do apologize for not coming correctly from the beginning with my blog.  My blog is still here, like I know YAH! is still there for me also, and I hope and pray you are also.

I’m feeling better already!

I look forward to sharing “real” talk with you about life and my experiences.  In the mean time, continue to live in your truth and always lay respect on the table first, before you give anything else of yourself to another.

 

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s